stuff on my mind
I talked crap @ 4:19 p.m. on Friday, Mar. 07, 2003
This chick at our skool thinks she is such a great singer.
HAHA
WAKE UP!
She hella sucks. Not good, can't hit high notes (but she's a sprano*sp?*) But she's 'supossed' to be an alto. Haha, BULLSHIT. Whatever!
Dude and it pisses me off, bcuz she sounds alright. but nothing special. She sounds like everyone else in our choir, but ppl make her sound like some amazing singer. Ugh, I hate people like her.
I wish she'd leave.
Get out of my life.
Everytime I think of her my insides crawl and burn.
I fucking hate her.
LaLaLa
I want a boyfriend. I'm feelin' left out. Everyone has (or had) a bf/gf. And I want one. I like the feeling of security it gives me. I ruined what could have been a great relationship, bcuz I thought I liked another dude and thought we were guna get together. That was months ago. DAMNIT. Never got with that dude, and I'm tired of waiting, and being told all this crap but never it happening.... stuff. LOL. But I'm not going to DARE go crawling back to the other dude, bcuz he just got dumped by his gf. But he is such a great guy. One of the koolest dudes out there. Heh, oh well. My loss. But actually I'm really confused about this subject.. I think I'm going to write about this in the next entry...
I'm listenig to this guy, Rich Mullins. He's a christian singer. He is amazing. Although he died a few years back, due to a car accident. =( . He turns normal everyday worship songs, into wonderfully beautiful songs. They totally get you into the mood of worship, which is totally kool. The song I'm listening to right now is, "My deliverer is coming" almost brings me to tears. It's such a true song. He also sings a popular worship song, "Awesome God" . I believe he does that song better than any other performer. He brings me to 'almost-tears' all the time. So touching.
I'm real disappointed in myself. I feel like I'm so fake. I'm not, but I feel like it. It really upsets me. Is hiding stuff considered bad? You don't have to revile everything do you? Does that mean you're fake, bcuz not everything's up front? Putting a smile on your face, even when everything's not alright. Saying your fine, when your not.