shitty day
I talked crap @ 1:54 p.m. on Friday, Feb. 28, 2003

I'm sick of liers.

ok so this guy, Mike, likes me, right? Yeah well that's what he says.... ONLINE! He's even gone as far as saying he is in love with me. And being as naive as I am, I believed it. Everything. The thing with him is he never talks to me in person. When he does its just small talk. He talks to everyone else, even this chick alyssa (this huge thing happened @ the banquet, that is why I hate her. I'll share later). He has no problem talking to her, flirting with her, telling secrets, touching her, you name it. I'm surprised he ain't shagged her yet. But when ever I talk to him (ONLINE!) he says that he doesn't like her more than a friend. And he loves me, and I'm the hottest girl "in the history of the world", and this and that. BULLSHIT! I asked him after one of the times he told me he loves me if he was sure it wasn't just an infactuation (bcuz i've been extremely hurt by one of those) and he was all noo i'm serious, yadda yadda. BULLSHIT FUCKING MOTHER FUCKER, I FUCKING HATE YOU. I promised myself I wouldn't trust him unless he proved it by showing me, and what did i do...I believe him. I promised myself I wouldn't fucking cry over something this petty...and what do I FUCKING DO?! CRY!! I hope that you, mike, read this and know that you, YES YOU, made me CRY. I cried twice, and that pisses me off to now end. I hate liers. They hurt you very badly. That's what you are mike. A lier. And you hurt me bad. I can't even explain it right now. I'm just so mad, that I would end up saying the wrong things. Since 8th grade, all I've wanted was for you to like me back. Once you finally like me, you make it bigger than it is and tell me you love me. Just finging out you like me was almost like a dream come true, honestly. Ask anyone of my friends from skool. He barely will talk to me and when he does its just small talk. He claims to be "shy" and he "doesn't know what to do" bcuz he was "sheltered" for the past 2years. Oh yeah it really shows when he's with alyssa. He is REALLY shy. BULLSHIT. He never touches me. As in hugs, putting arm on shoulder, touching my arm when he talks to me..nothing. NOT EVEN PATTING MY HEAD! wtf dude, I can't talk about this anymore. I fucking hate him, and I fucking hate alyssa bcuz when he does anything to her, she looks over at me, to see if I'm looking and smiles. SHE FUCKING RUBS IT IN, and FUCKING MICHAEL RUBS IT IN. Like hot sauce on an Olcer. I think I got an olcer. I seriously feel like shit right now. I hope I do get an olcer, or something. Excuse not to go to skool and see either of them two fucking assholes. I hear that the bitch is moving. Moving to her dads. I rejoyced when I heard that, and I hopd that it's true. Two fake asshole friends gone in one year. That's like a dream. Now just one to go and my life'll be set. I have to stop, I feel like I'm going to puke.

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