enough
I talked crap @ 9:26 a.m. on Saturday, Apr. 10, 2004

... i just want someone to say they care... and mean it... and not have a girlfriend... and now say it bcuz your a girl and whenever anyone says something like this you feel like you must take it up as your responsibility to say "i care"... i know how girls work... i just want a bestfriend... who i can talk to about anything... i need to talk... it's guna explode into not good things soon... i'm about to crack... i don't want to go back to the therapist...but maybe this time i can get a good one this time... i just want someone to care... i want them to tell me... i need to hear it... i'll crack... i don't want anyone 'feeling sorry' for me... i don't need your fake 'symphathy'... i'm tired of always searching for ppl to eat w/ during lunch... i'm tired of being out of all the 'inside jokes' w/ everyone... i'm tired of hateing the mirror... i'm tired of being shy... and never talking... i'm tired of people thinking i'm stuck up bcuz i don't talk... i'm tired of ppl hateing me... i didn't do anything... i promise... i'm tired of feeling alone... i'm tired of being confused... i'm tired of getting my hopes up... i'm tired of looking for attention in all the wrong places... i'm tired of looking for compliments from the wrong guys... i'm tired of feeling like i have to be someone else for anyone to like me... i'm tired of ppl makeing plans in front of me and not inviting me... i'm tired of it... i'm tired of everything... i'm tired...

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